Below are the 13 most recent journal entries recorded in hotangelmami's LiveJournal:

Thursday, October 20th, 2005
8:54 pm	eh I dunno life is good but at the same time blah...............i am so far behind in school that i will never catch up for this semester there us just no way i might as well withdraw from the courses with an f and be able to take them again i dunno i just should hav ekept goin when seth was gone but i couldnt things were just too out of whack for me n blah i was so depressed ..so there i amin a rut with that neways everything else is pretty great kids are still ugh sumtime but thatis to be expected right>??? things with seth are perfect although people tried making minor infractions there but that obiously didnt work people are just so strange it amazes me how sum have no lives but to sit around and either talk shit on u or sit there n make shit up its amazing!!!!either way its all good if they have nuthin better to do then think about us or me or him then so be it lol .....winter will be here soon brrrrrrrr makes me cold just thinken about the snow but yea soon soon....... i dunno i guess this it it for now i never write much in here nemore i dunno if thats good or bad but w/e (Comment on this)
Monday, September 5th, 2005
1:32 pm	Day 1 Well Seth left today for New orleans.......We got up at 4:15am and I took him to meadville to leave ..he has called me twice since this morning.......I am doing pretty good i guess it could be worse of course i am missing him like crazy and I am very tired cuz when i got home i only go ta 1/2 hour nap.......I am worried about him i am continuosly praying for the saftey of him and his fellow troops....i was saved several years ago but have since backslidden and well this morning i once again asked Jesus to come into my heart and I have felt so much better since then and i am currently reading a book and studying scriptures which is also making me feel much better I have a sence of peace about me now that i really like it is however hard to stay focused at times but we all have good and bad days it will all be ok though even though my baby is so far away hes really not cuz hes right by my side along with God ........Seth I love u baby and u are in my prayers as well as teh men with u for a safe return and guidance on ur mission .......my tears fall from my eyes cuz i love u so muvh and miss u and am so worried about u .......but in my heart i know everything will be ok ....I Love You...you have to just find sumthin in ur life that is important to u and focus on it and u have to just deal with things find ur way to make it thru......we have dun this before n it worked and we will do it again and be even stronger it might take a lil longer this time but we will make it thru this and everything else thrown at us i love u Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: none (Comment on this)
Monday, August 29th, 2005
10:25 pm	Well The kids went back to school today and well they had a great first day!!! Wooohoo now tomorrow its mommys turn to go back hehe im nervous but its all good i just hope i do as good as i did my first semester that would be great! Things are well things round here lol umm i dunno no much has cganged me n seth are still doing great hehe um yea so summers almost over n yuck winter will soon be approachingus but its all good cuz we get to go thru fall first yay i love fall its so pretty all the changing leaves hehe n not to mention halloween hehe i love it but neways i spose i better jump off her emy baby is waiting in bed for me i dunno how i could sleep at night if he wsnt here n i dont ever wanna have to go thru that again well nini all o yea n go me i took the kids to school n picked them up alone wooohooo i rock!!! Current Mood: awake Current Music: nuthin but quiet (Comment on this)
Monday, August 1st, 2005
8:56 pm	Blah Well not too muchnew round here summer is windingdown and it will soon be time for the kids togo back to school as well as myself fun fun!! I have been putten the kids to bed at 8 so they get used to being in bed for school.....other then that nuthin too much new cleanen n more cleanen n all that fun mommy stuff but its all good !!! well im roasten n bored n i have nuthin to type really nini Current Mood: blah Current Music: none (Comment on this)
Friday, July 29th, 2005
1:07 pm	Yea so ya gotta check out my mysoace i love it hehe n i made it all wellwith a lil help from muh sweetie hehe i luv u crissi n thanks hun www.myspace.com/18294503 Current Mood: happy Current Music: we belong together (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 28th, 2005
7:08 am	YAY!!!!! Well my baby will be home today he should be on the road as we speak i am so excited i cant wait to see him and hug him nhold him n kiss him i have missed him sooooo much im so cited!!! we got a puppy last night hes a cutie but whinned a few times duren the night n woke me up......but im so cited i cant even write much hehe i got mad things to do today i need to pick up n get dressed n everything hehe i cant wait !!! WE MADE IT BABY!!!!! it didnt break us so it made us........... Current Mood: excited Current Music: we belong together (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 20th, 2005
11:05 am	I dunno Aol is such bs anymore im dun well with the chat rooms anyways too much bs the people in there have no lives at all its ather amusing lol but yea i dun need that shyt no more yea but neways lol way too much free time on those peoples hands lol and way too much addicted to drama n omg my life is over cuz i got booted out the chat room omg gimmie a effen break lol what are we 12??? but neways i got to talk to my baby last night n this morning just for a real quick hi it was great!!!He is such a sweetheart i can't wait till he is home imma hold him n never let go!!!!Oh oh n i love how a certain sumone who shall rename nameless puts a pic on his or her profile lmao to try to pizz people off i find that amusing too its funny how when u have sumone u eff things upn then once there gone u want them back so u email them and out shyt in ur profile to make them think about u lmao too bad it doesnt work its all goodcuz hes in my arms n well not urs and well hes styen in mine n will never be back in urs so umm yea enjoy ur lil pic wit ur dawg tags that he didnt even give to u u more or less uhhhh just picked them up n started wearen them lol cuz um yea thats about all u got left of him hehehe bbut neways 7 days n a wake up n my baby will be home i cant wait i really really cant friday night we have so much planned n then satiurday morning we go look at sum houses woohooo well i already looked at them but he needs to see thm yet ok well i better get off here n get goin abpout my day finish picking up so i can get the rugrats outside ........... Current Mood: calm Current Music: none (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 17th, 2005
10:42 am	Hmmm I dunno I m bored right now and my allergies are a kikken my azz my throat feels so dayum tight n my nose is all plugged up my eyes are watery and blh my neck back chest n shoulder muscles are all still tight as can be i hate anxiety n i hate stress might go to the waterford hertiage days today i am not sure yet i know i need to get out of the house but mom doesnt feel like going ith all these kids well guress what i like to get out of the house to i havent been anywhere but the store since seth left.....i dunno maybe noone will go starten to look like its gunna rain again....talked to my baby this morning they wwent on a 2 mile run today in the rain of course he sounded so tired when i talked to him he didnt sleep good last night...imagine that the first night i actually do sleep pretty good he doesnt......tony didnt call to take the kids this weekend of course i knew he wouldnt but its all good marissa called him last night and he wanted her to come down i just gave her a look n she finished talken to him i mean screw thatcall ur dayum kids man take them when u say ur gunna take em its all bullshyt if u ask me i dunno well i spose imma get off here n email my baby again n hope he can call me back soon just the sound of ur voice baby makes me feel so much better i love u n miss u like crazy seth!!! Current Mood: anxious Current Music: kids yellen (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 16th, 2005
11:09 pm	Saturday Well today was a really shytty day it was absolute hell ........I didnt get to talk to my baby till 7 pm tonight .....Thank god i had Karen tot alkt o today cuz omg i sware shes the one who kept me sane till he called it was ughhhhhhh i hope the rest of the days go faster i really do n that they are way better i wrote a poem for my baby tonight.......n baby i miss u n love u oh so much id otn think u will ever know...... without you here it feels like my worst fear i feel like i am going crazy to feel your soft lips to fell you amazing touch to see the eyes of the one i love so much you make me complete without you i'd be nothing i love you more then i ahve ever loved any man before you saved me fromt he hell i was drowning in and made me able to love again....... i love u so muxh seth i want to spend the rest ofmy life with u and i am sure 2 times infinity baby ur the best thing that has come into my life next to my kids of course we click so well and we are great togeher and for each other i love u baby Current Mood: tired Current Music: none (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 14th, 2005
11:39 pm	Tired I am tired but not ready for bed just yet........ya know I hate people who ry to start shyt with people who are happy content and complete its utter bs that unhappy people have to try to make happy people unhappy like them just cuz they are pathetic and have no life themselves..........grrrrrrrrr..........but whatever all i knwo is noone is going tomess things up this time ........I love Seth very much and we are meant to be together we both feel it so it just isnt goin to happen i know the road isnt gunnabeeasy cuz there will be shyt talkers n drama starters nhaters but u know what screw them all seeriously i just dont have time for it and if it means getten rid of aol then so be it cuz wellmy baby mmeans more to me then aol ...its all good mybaby will be home in 2 weeks and we can hold each other once agaion n i so cant wait for that day to get here i miss him so so so much i have never missed anyone this much before in my life.....i cried n cried today but as always he made me smile and feel better i love it i love him he is so amazing...... the days can get so ruff when i am so used to him bein here ........ok i think thats aboiut it kids were stressen me out tonight too but its allgood they do that sumtimes ya know........ok imma go work on my myspace thingy n well yea then prolly email my baby n go to bed .........nini Current Mood: sore Current Music: wait (the whisper song) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 13th, 2005
11:57 pm	Blah Today was an ok day my allergies where buggenme pretty bad...it was ery hot till it stormed but thenit was pretty nice....kids did fireworks tonight....went n looked at a house it was nice ........talked to my baby he is doin good .......cant wait for him to get home i just wanna hold him so bad .........i ono not really too much to write about tonigh tother then i canbt wait for the next 2 weeks to be up so i cna see him ................. Current Mood: blah Current Music: i swear (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 12th, 2005
10:59 pm	Sad Well gawd i cant wait for this 2 weeks 2 days and a wake up to be over so I can see my baby I miss him horribly.......its hard to sleep its hard tolay in bed its hard to listen to music its just hard ....Baby I love u so unbeilivably much I just don't even think u know how much ......but thats ok cuz i have plenty of time to show u........ i just camnt wait for u to be back in my arms Current Mood: irritated Current Music: Good Morning Beautiful (Comment on this)
Monday, July 11th, 2005
11:45 pm	stressful day well today was a pretty stressful day ........among with seth being gone for 3 weeks which is just so ugh in itself i miss him so badly we had a few problems this morning but are fine now we both miss each other and it is maken us crabby but we will make it.2 friends of mine where in car accident today thank god they are fine.....more parent stress i am so sick of being treated like i am 12 its so unbelievable i sware i am so not allowed to be happy here at all ........i was talkin to seth on the phone now mind u we dont get much time to talk n my mother unplugged the phone i mean really how immature......but yea its almost time for bed n well i need it .......goodnight (Comment on this)